"I usually want to die or do nothing"
— Daul Kim (via
conceptnoir)
"I told them I smash glass bottles when I’m bored and they told me like, “Daul, I think humans are supposed to be beautiful and look at beautiful things in life”, I was like… smashing glass is beautiful."
— Daul Kim (via
stop-and-stop)
"I cried, for happiness, for sadness, but most of all, for emptiness."
— Daul Kim (via
heresay)
"
하고픈일도 없는 데
nothing i want to do
되고픈것도 없는데
nothing i want to be
모두들 뭔가 말해보라해
everyone tells me to say something
별다른 욕심도없이
without any greed
남다른 포부도없이
without any extraordinary ambition
이대로이면 안되는걸까
can’t it be this way
나
am
이상한걸까
i a little strange?
어딘가 조금
somewhere little
삐뚤어져버린
deformed
머리에는
mind
매일매일 다른 생각만 가득히
filled with different thoughts
나
am
괜찮은걸까
i okay
지금 이대로
as of right now
어른이되버린 다음에는
after i become adult
점점 더 사람들과 달라지겠지
more and more i will be different from everyone
모든사람이 나와같다면
if everyone were like me
아무갈등도
no conflict
미움도 없이
without hatred
참좋을텐데
it would be so nice
참좋을텐데
it would be so nice
나
am
이상한걸까
i a little strange
어딘가조금
somewhere
삐둘어져버린
deformed
머리에는
mind
매일매일 다른 생각만 가득 히
filled with different thoughts
나
am
괜찮은걸까
i okay
지금이대로
as of right now
어른이 되버린 다음에는
i become adult
아니 난 자라지 않을것만 같아
no i don’t think i will grow
"
— 김다울 (Daul Kim)
"
Depression and boredom
is luxury
and it is our mother and our father
and it is repetition
why bother to escape your fate
what you were born into
why you suffer your poor self
everything is a lie
and we can only hope that there is something
out there
the last time we thought it was the last and final
and it wasnt
and it wont be
we will have affairs
and we will be bored
we will envy others
who will envy us
we will all be jealous and ugly
and then we will be bored
it is repetition
and i am a fool
it is our mothers and our fathers
and we will become mothers and fathers
and our children will follow
and the comfort will last if we are lucky currency wise
but the boredom will follow anyhow
"
—
Daul Kim (via
chiisaibakemono)
"i went to bed in the afternoon
hoping i would never wake up"
— Daul Kim (via
witchmercysthighs)
"I already accepted that I relate to nothing. The more I gain, the more lonely it is… I know I’m like a ghost."
— Daul Kim (via
coral)
"People are selfish. Their love for others is so god damn selfish. People want to destroy what is nice, what is good, what they want, and make it theirs. That’s why i love things. And i try to show kindness and politeness to people i care about. Perhaps i don’t know how to love. Perhaps its a way of self destruction. Self-damnation. Something unconditional. I don’t know how to love. I don’t know how to receive love. I don’t know, I’ve always felt like an outsider. I am just a foreigner everywhere. Staying relative is hard. Staying honest is hard. I know I’m like a ghost. I have nothing but myself and potential. Everyone says to be yourself, but I don’t like the reflection I see every day. I just want to be happy. I should be happy. I should shine today. And I should be rested. It shouldn’t be that difficult, be a darling, smile , enjoy. I feel frozen, standing, waiting for the lights to change. I hear nothing. I feel irrelevant. I feel dreamy. It is almost dream like, self created silence. I just don’t want to sleep alone. I wonder what’s wrong with me. Sometimes I just keep wanting to go deeper and deeper into the world of self destruction. Like as if I want to see myself fail completely and disappear."
— Daul Kim (via
666-kitten)
